According to Hindu philosophy, animals eventually will reincarnate into people, but only if the animal has no fear of humans. This can only happen if we are kind to them. How many times have we heard someone say that their dog or cat thinks it’s a human? Some Hindus will tell you that that’s because their pet is in fact, ready to be a human in its next life.
I can get behind that.
Last month, we had to say goodbye to our eight-year-old boxer after he sustained a sudden illness. I believe the only thing Moe felt differentiated him from a human, was that he took a heartworm pill every month. I have no doubt he will become a handsome and charming human and will love long walks on the beach. (Think Ryan Reynolds.)
So of course, we knew we’d miss his exuberance when we came in the front door; miss taking him for his daily walk; and miss his goofiness, especially when an exercise ball freaked him out. But as the days and weeks have gone by, I felt his loss is unexpected ways:
Nearly-empty jars of peanut butter get rinsed with water instead of being licked clean before going into the recycling bin.
Eating popcorn without being watched, feels unnatural.
The mail sits in the mailbox at the end of the cul-de-sac for days at a time now because we no longer go on an evening walk and often just forget to pick it up.
Bringing groceries into the house is anti-climatic because the excitement radiating from this child-with-fur whose waiting for a surprise out of one of the bags, just isn’t there.
The wood floor in the kitchen has an annoying shine because the dried drool marks are gone.
I never thought I’d miss dog farts, nose prints on the glass door, and floating dog hair in the air.
I knew it’d be lonely, but holy crap, I had no idea. The Husband and I work from home, so when he went away for a work trip, I wasn’t fully prepared for the deafening silence. Even a tank full of fish or a lava lamp might have helped. Or dare I say . . . a cat? My neighborhood is full of free range felines and I have found myself keeping a lookout for them. I’ve fallen for a beautiful black one with white paws and green eyes that actually showed me some affection.
I know he’s no good for me. I’m allergic. But would it be so bad to let him come in and walk around? Snuggle a little? I could wash my hands and use a sticky roller on my clothes later . . . I could take an allergy pill. I’m all about protection.
Yes, I’m on the rebound. I’d take in a squirrel if it showed signs of domestication.
I know, just get another dog, right? First of all, it’s too soon. Second, with our son likely leaving the nest in about two years, The Husband and I would like to do some traveling for months at a time, so having a pet wouldn’t be a wise decision.
But . . .
In 2007, Moe picked us out when we came to look at a litter of seven boxer puppies. I believe he did that because he knew we would be his best chance at becoming a human in his next life. There’s no guarantee we won’t get another dog sooner rather than later, because when a dog picks you, you have no choice but to scoop him up and take him home.
April,
Having shared some amazing time with you and your family, I know of your empathy towards others, whether they are furry or otherwise. Your piece here hit home to me. Not only poignant, but so true. After my Great Dane died (and ALL other family members), there was this terrible silence that ensued. You’ve captured that here, but also give us the chance to say Thank you (posthumously) to our friends we so much miss.
Aw, thanks, Katherine.
Beautiful tribute to Moe, April! I’ll miss him greeting us at the door on Raintree Writers nights.
Thanks, Mary. I’ve already told my husband that if we get another dog, it would be a senior. There are so many older dogs who deserve to live out the rest of their lives with a loving family. I follow Susie’s Senior Dogs on Facebook because they not only post about senior dogs who need a home, but also share adoption stories that will melt your heart.
Great post, April. My dogs are 12, 13 & 14 respectively and I will go mad if they all die within a couple of years of each other. I will be adopting senior dogs who would otherwise spend their last year or so in a kennel. I wouldn’t know what to do if I didn’t have to clean up poop, vomit and Mr. PEE-body’s urine traces around my workout space.